Life, how would I define?

Life! I’ve no definition for it. Shall I define by the sunny days I’ve been exposed to or to the rainy days they have been through. And I don’t offer one. As I fail to recognize futile sense of utility to the definition offered. I know I’ve my share of life but what I fail to understand is “why be so complex”. If life has been pile of beautiful roses without the slightest presence of thorn underneath, would you still think there is meaning to it or shall I hope so?

Everyday, thorns tear me apart in the abyss of this emptiness. This solitary solitude of darkness. All silence and ain’t there no prayers. “I ain’t no more a snivelling boy”, I say. But can you deny all this, sometimes, the emptiness you feel is bigger than the problem itself.

Sometimes, better it may turn out to be, if I’m not thinking but possibly I can’t do that because my mind just is thinking always. Past, Present and Future and there in between fighting; is still me. Tortured!

There are no excuses.No more feeling of the serenity of the mind. Just the empty bells ringing like a faraway trill. Only guidance you have is the clouded mind, that is able to guide you anymore. Feeble mind! Who cares and say, everyone has their problems of their own. Your problem is non of their business.

Till now, life, how I have come to realise is this: It’s bundle of an associated and related problems. There are always whims of cry and unhappiness. We tend to forget sometimes that the only person who doesn’t need a help is the one who needed the help most. We fail to realise anything except for being so selfish, eccentric and self-centered. There is nothing more important but us, so-called ‘I’. Exaggerated!~

 

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A letter to a friend!

Dear,

I am but a human being. And I understand that. I have my short comings and you have yours. But I don’t care to judge. You care for me as I friend, that’s all I have learn to care. And I respect that fact, invariably. I’ve learned something so as to value, so called friendship. And it doesn’t matter, whether you laugh only with others or you walk away because my conviction says you will be always there for me. But you have to understand sometimes that somebody expects more from you because you mean something to them. Such one is Rinchen*. She is emotional, impulsive and she cares. I know you are just opposite but sometimes you should make up to them.

I say this because sometimes we overlook the obvious.

But you don’t worry about me. I’m your friend and I think you deserve much more a nicer friend than me.  You know I’ma bundle of problem myself and I tend to feel that is true and I can’t possibly judge anyone though sometimes I say some stupid things. And I don’t mean anything by that.

Life, hmmm…You know it’s too short to make so many problems but I know you don’t mean to hurt but it happens. We are not perfect!

I’m but a poor fellow here. Don’t know, why I came here but sometimes I thank god for giving such a wonderful friends. To laugh and joke. But sometimes jokes are not always joke you know.

I’ve learn to live with what I’m and no one can change that but there are better things to change for than to live with those that gives you instant pain.

I cry, I laugh and I smile. It’s all natural process for me and for you. But sometimes, smiles doesn’t tell you everything about a person. If you care to dig into someone’s life. You will find the hole, the deep message within. Ultimately, what I tend to conclude is,there is no such place is that or this. Its constantly evolving or changing but only remaining fact is I tend to forget where I belong to: A pathetic man who doesn’t know his pathetic problems.

You are my friend and will be, no one can change that fact, if we care to keep it alive!

To my living god: my parents!

To my living god: my parents,

Will hold, thou heart close to mine,

In my living dreams and unknown quest,

Through the aisle of life and daring dreams,

Imprinting fond memories, that’s so divine,

You dwell in my heart, in unknown thirst.

 

Through the darkness of pain, and hard earned penny,

Nurtured the world in me, that I can walk along,

Seeing the unseen; the world around me with no agony,

No matter what it had been, for them so long?

Letting me rise above the clouds and see the sky!

Stand on my feet: be able to fly.

 

When the world would close its door around me,

You fondly open the door of your heart,

Showered with love, an understanding care,

Never did complain, just fondly nurture,

Edifice those character in me like a treasure.

 

You have a home in my heart,

With all virtues of love and wonders,

Like those of angels and almighty lord,

Never letting go as precious as ever!

A prayer!

Pray, to the divine above,

Feel the sentient below,

Touch and embrace,

The circle of karma around!

 

Lets pray, just for a minute or two,

Feeling the breeze, just cool and soothing,

The life of individual within,

Charm of it, love and warmth!

 

Feel the surge of love,

Live with moments; never having to hate,

Unconditional and so fulfilling,

Innate beauty of your disposition.

 

This is a prayer, just to show a love,

To those incapable and unfortunate few,

May mercy fills and compassionate few,

Be part of their life!

 

 

It’s love

Tell, its love,

A tale, to co-exist,

A tale to mend and be dove,

A tale, never having to resist,

The war of crimes and ideology,

Fight for life, and our rights,

It’s time to go, no eulogy,

Love to come, no fights,

No finger to point, otherwise,

All at peace! Yeah “its love!”

To the memory lane

I walk…

To the memory lane,

Remembering but long gone memories,

Of you, and sweetness in you.

 

I talk…

But with myself,

Of our time,

Short but sweetest, ever!

 

I sit…

But so alone,

Filling but a ray of hope,

You sitting beside me.

 

I cry…

Another lonely tears,

Hoping, you would come,

Wipe away my tears.